grad school woes

i filed my leave of absence from grad school today. so, im officially out of school. but, grad school continues to haunt me.

i got a mark of NO GRADE in my ba 214 class. yep, the research & stat class i had complained so much about last semester. i thought i was free when i submitted my research paper last april. obviously, im not. and i have to look for my teacher and demand for my grade or else, *shudder shudder* i have to repeat that class. no grade in ba 214 means i cannot enroll in thesis next semester since i lack the academic requirements and my plans of finishing grad school next year will be I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E.

(sigh) im really worried over this. i have to find the teacher & FAST! november is just around the corner & we all know how time really flies that fast...

another grad school ghost is the thesis topic. LOL! ive been trying to think of topics but no idea pops out. or maybe im really to blame over this lack of thesis topic idea thingie. LOL! i got so overwhelmed with the break i got from school that i had the search for a thesis topic as the least of my priorities.

but now? i have to get back in the game. not only to find a thesis topic, but my ba 214 prof. let the countdown to november begin...

am i really on a leave of absence status? it seems im not...

random thoughts on ateneo fiesta, kadayawan & angel locsin...

well, things are back to normal again...after the ateneo fiesta & the kadayawan - that is what i meant with normal. LOL! hmmmm....too bad, i got sick during the festivities but, i still had a good time, in a sickly way. a little time for the blue nite shindig & double date with dan & lj on a wednesday, shopped till i drop last thursday (yep, i'll drop dead this week, no more money left, LOL!), rested on the friday coz i had a fever, had a date with yos saturday night despite the terrible cough spells, watched the ateneo fiesta concluding program & finished my heroes episodes last sunday. you think its boring? hmmmm....i don't. wellllllll, maybe, it is. but you see, i live in Davao. i can party anytime.

though i got a little sad since UTI did not have any special plans for the kadayawan if we did, we'd top it all...LOL! i miss the UTI pips. we did not even watch the cheerdance competition together...sigh! oh well, there's plenty of time for UTI partying...

the ateneo fiesta concluded its 4 day celebration last saturday. well, accountancy division is still the over-all champion BUT they did not rule out the college of nursing & natural science division in the cheerdance competition & sayawtenista, which i think were the highlights of the fiesta. i was betting on humanities to win (from what i saw) but i have not seen their thursday performance so i really cant give out fair comments about the cheerdance. so, i'll just say my congratulations to pids (NS) & joya (HUM)! congratsh guysh =) hmmmmm...the ateneo fiesta really brings out good memories from college. i remember our late night practices of the cheering squad (yep, including the fall..LOL!), the cheers & yells (roll out the victory, etc.). so much has changed from the way we celebrated ateneo fiesta during my college years. sigh.....well, what can i say? till next year.

i watched ASAP last sunday coz there was nothing good on TV & my pesky sister watches it fanatically and boy! i got toooooooo much of the "angel locsin welcome as a kapamilya"! duh! do they really have to welcome her that much? or was ABS-CBN just trying to push it to GMA's face that they have angel locsin now? well, whatever the reasons are, it surely made ASAP suck! (as if it was not already....LOL!)

movie reaction agein: FIDO (2006)

SYPNOSIS: willard is a typical cutesy town, set in the 50's, where everything seems ordinary. but not quite. years ago, a war was waged between man & zombies. after the battle the won by mankind, ZomCom Corp., found a way to control and prevent these zombies from eating human flesh. the movie particularly revolves around Fido, a well-loved household zombie, who attacked their old lady neighbor and how the family members try to protect and save their beloved Fido from being thrown in the Zone..

WHAT I THINK: this movie is hilarious! ive never seen anything like this! i laughed while watching the zombies do the household chores like waiting on tables, plowing the garden & delivering their milk. LOL! it was like normal house help, only they were zombies. generally, the movie is funny but there were tidbits of family drama and friendship..

a movie reaction: NIGHT OF THE DEAD (Leben Tod), 2006

SYPNOSIS: dr. gabriel schreklich had discovered a serum that can resurrect the dead. but such living, comes with a price. once resurrected, they turn into flesh-eating ghouls. his wife & daughter were resurrected too, after being killed in a car accident. and they are being kept in a specialized hospital, together with the other "mistakes", while he is trying to make the perfect serum for resurrecting a dead without leaving any "ghoulish" characteristics. at the same time, a pregnant anais is not allowed to leave dr. schreklich's specialized hospital, where her husband is having a medical internship with his doctor uncle. however, the night becomes deadly as the ghouls have been set free....and they wanted more than being kept alive.

WHAT I THINK: bloody hell! ive seen a lot of psycho killing type movies but this one's definitely a MUST-SEE! its all about gore! there's the daughter eating her mother's brains out after she got alive again, the doctor opening up a cadaver for a procedure, and there's the...ok ok...enough of that....i got queasy watching the movie (but hey, i was sick & i was already feeling nauseated, LOL!) but the writer, eric foresberg, is superb! the movie was gross from the start till end. though the casts were raw in their performances, well, you wouldnt really notice it....
the end in the movie is a twist, you'll see...
BUT IF YOU ARE THE FAINT HEARTED TYPE OF PERSON, THIS IS NOT DEFINITELY A MOVIE TO WATCH. just giving out my warnings, ok?

QUOTABLE QUOTES: yep, im serious! i got one quote despite its gore & being gross...LOL! this was when dr. schreklich wife was leading a group hungry ghouls attacking her husband...

"you know what doctor? how will you really know how it is to be alive again when you do not have a taste of death?"

good point...

makes me wonder (for the nth time....)

my throat started getting scratchy last wednesday...
I KNEW WHERE THIS "THROAT THING" is headed...
and boy, i was not wrong =(
i had an itchy nose yesterday evening & now?
i have a runny nose....
oooohhhh, i just hate this.
i hate getting a runny nose.
i hate getting a cold =(
for pete's sake, how come im getting a cold????
i always drink kalamansi juice every night and every morning.
i drink more than 15 glasses of water.
and now this.
this runny nose is such a party-pooper! grrrrrrrrr =/

How to Kill Time

i got this from the "super dami" na blog entries ni sir bong last week. LOL! it made me stop & think...and i realize, sometimes, we are the ones slowly killing our ourselves with things that we should not worry about...anyway, just read on...its worth it...

How To Kill Time
Leo Rock, SJ


How do I kill time?
Let me count the ways.

By worrying about things
Over which I have no control.
Like the past.
Like the future.

By harboring resentment
and anger
over hurts
real or imagined.

By disdaining the ordinary
or, rather, what I
so mindlessly
call ordinary.

By concern over what's in it for me,
rather than what's in me for it.

By failing to appreciate what is
because of might-have-beens,
should-have-beens,
could-have-beens.

These are some of the ways
I kill time.

Jesus didn't kill time.
He gave life to it.
His own

Beyond Forgetting

Beyond Forgetting
Rolando Carbonell

For a moment I thought I could forget you.

For a moment I thought I could still the restlessness in my heart.
I thought the past could no longer haunt me—nor hurt me.
How wrong I was!

For the past, no matter how distant, is as much a part of me as life itself.
And you are part of that life.
You are so much a part of me—of my dreams, my early hopes, my youth and my ambitions—that in all my tasks I can’t help remembering you.
Many little delights and things remind me of you.

Yes, I came.
And would my pride mock my real feelings?
Would the love song, the sweet and lovely smile on your face, be lost among the deepening shadows?

I have wanted to be alone.
I thought I could make myself forget you in silence and in song...
And yet I remembered.
For who could forget the memory of the once lovely, the once happy world such as ours?

I came because the song that I kept through the years is waiting to be sung.
I cannot sing it without you.
The song when sung alone will lose the essence of its tune, because you and I had been one.

I have wanted this misery to end, because it is part of my restlessness.
Can’t you understand?
Can’t you divine the depth and the tenderness of my feelings towards you?
Yes, can’t you see how I suffer in this even darkness without you?

You went away because you mistook my silence for indifference.
But silence, my dear, is the language of my heart.
How could I essay the intensity of my love when silence speaks a more eloquent tone?
But, perhaps, you didn’t understand...

Remember, I came because the gnawing loneliness is there and will not be lost until the music is sung, until the poem is heard, until the silence is understood....
until you come to me again.

For you alone can blend the music and memory into one consuming ecstasy.
You alone...