i just got out!

i was supposed to write this one yesterday but i had a pounding headache from sleeping too much in the hospital, so i slept early! (what a way to combat headache in the first place!)

i just got out from my hospital ordeal. yep, i had dengue fever. my platelet count that tuesday night was 106 (way below from the normal count of 140). i was worried already (and so is my mom), so i decided to confine myself in the hospital case it was really dengue. it really was. the next day, my platelet is down to 70 already. anyway, no need to go into details now. what matters is im ok. i still have those red rashes in my legs but dr. hernandez says they'll just disappear in time. i hope so! im ready to wear my skirts again...LOL!

but actually, i was not worried about myself during those times. i was worried of so many things.

my work, especially my boss, since he will handle all my jobs and all those scholars who need me.

i was worried about my mom because she was the one who watched over me and if she worries too much, her blood pressure might be affected.

i was worried because i could not fully support yos in his upcoming board exam. there was the 9 day masses to attend and all other support he needs.

i was afraid of all the needles to be truthful. when my platelet went that low, it was ordered that i be tested every 6 hours. i had a total of 8 needle pricks im my fingers, aside from the 1 syringe of blood taken from me.

and so on, and so forth...

but, with the grace of God, all beautiful things that i did not expect fell into place, all in thier beautiful time. it was way of God telling me not to worry too much. that i was to let go, to go through everything.